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7 Nov 04//12:25p |
DREAM: in a town on the beach. ON a rocky beach with two actors, the girl being nicole kidman. the man had just dissapeared,. to have an affair with another man. but no one knew that. he just dissapeared, and i had been watching some talk show where the female host had said; now this, this is what to do: just dissapear. so the man comes home, we're in the dark, no moon, on the rocky beach,she kisses him, touches him face, doesnt ask any questions. we're standing next to the water, like he came out of it, in a boat, or out of the woods behind us. she bends down, digs a little, pulls something out of the dirt and says, shocked, people have been here! someone was just here! and then later, down the same thing, pulls a small bottole of lotion out of the rocks. the man takes it and hurls it into the sea. denying that anyone had been there, like it was a deserted beach or an offlimits one. right before that, and asian girl on a surfboard surfed right up to the edge of where the ocean meets the land, wearing clothes, completely dry.
later im with another person in the back of someone's car, the seat for some reason, is really close to the roof, my head touches it and i get really cramped and really claustrophobic. then me and dad and another girl are at a dock. i have a black, new sweatshirt on that says Chabot, and im afriad people will recognizer me by it, at least the important people, but i close the strings &pull the hood tight over my face to hide who i am. we walk down the pier and everyone is just stopped, even inside the stores, standing at looking at us. i can feel their eyes on my face and i wish i had something more to hide under. certain people, i know, recognize me. we get closer to the end of the pier. dad's talking or something. i walk up to these two girls dressed in white, i have a full tube of toothpaste in my hand, brand new. from far away, i squirt one of the girls with it. i have the chance to leave now; but i stay. i walk up to her and do it again, then i rub it in on her face; i write HO on her whiter shirt. and walk away. then her father starts chasing me; dad and the other person run back to the car. for some reason, when i get to the end of the pier and try to run up the small incline towards the car, in the parking lot, i cant. im completely winded, but not tired, more like something had just knocked the wind out of me. iremember thinking ihad some disease or preexsisting condition. i feel like im drowning, looking at the car, but im entirelty incapable of reaching it. the girl's father is chasing me, he's an overweight bald man in a dark grey tshirt with a band on it. i look at dad desperately hoping he'll see the m,an closing in on me, but he doesnt notive and starts the car. then i see; the fat man gets into the passenger seat. they open the back door for me, i get in, and we drive away.
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